Error loading page.
Try refreshing the page. If that doesn't work, there may be a network issue, and you can use our self test page to see what's preventing the page from loading.
Learn more about possible network issues or contact support for more help.

My Life as a Russian Novel

A Memoir

Audiobook
1 of 1 copy available
1 of 1 copy available
In work after work, the critically acclaimed author Emmanuel Carrère has trained his unblinking gaze on the lives of others as they fight a losing battle with that most fearsome of adversaries—the self. Now, determined to escape the bleak visions of his narratives, he takes on a film project in the heart of Russia while also embarking on a new love affair back home in Paris. But soon enough, the diversion he seeks eludes him, intimacy proves too arduous, and Carrère is left peering into the dark mirror of his own life.


Set in Paris and Kotelnich, a small post-Soviet town, My Life as a Russian Novel traces Carrère's pursuit of two obsessions—the disappearance of his Russian grandfather and his erotic fascination with a woman he loves but cannot keep from destroying. In prose that is elegant and passionate, Carrère weaves the strands of his story into a travelogue of a journey inward. Road trip, confession, erotic tour de force—this fearless reckoning illuminates the schemes we devise to evade ourselves and the inevitable payment they exact.
  • Creators

  • Publisher

  • Release date

  • Formats

  • Languages

  • Reviews

    • Publisher's Weekly

      May 10, 2010
      In this compelling, intensely interior-driven narrative, French author Carrère (The Adversary) uses as a point of departure the return of a Hungarian mental patient imprisoned in a Russian hospital since the end of WWII to unlock the author’s own guilt-ridden, transgressive past. Carrère admits he is chronically attracted to tales of madness, due largely to deeply suppressed feelings of shame surrounding the family relationship to Carrère’s grandfather, a brilliant but gloomy Russian-speaking Georgian émigré to France who gravitated toward the German occupiers during WWII out of frustration and disgruntlement. He worked as an "interpreter" for the Nazis in Bordeaux, then vanished at the time of Liberation. Denial of his grandfather’s deeds had gnawed at him all his life, and by venturing to Kotelnich, Russia, with a film crew, ostensibly to produce a documentary of the plight of this long-lost Hungarian mental patient, Carrère plunged back into his mother’s first language, Russian, hoping somehow to gain insight into his grandfather. Hand-in-hand in this torturous Russian saga is Carrère’s romantic crisis with fiancée Sophie, a young woman in love with the author but so cowed by his moods and self-absorption that she took another lover and lied outrageously about it, compounding Carrère’s emotional paranoia. Despite a puerile erotic "short story" to Sophie that appears midway, Carrère’s solipsistic work proves absorbing, while his rendering of the hard-worn Russian inhabitants of Kotelnich are frankly moving.

Formats

  • OverDrive Listen audiobook

Languages

  • English

Loading